1. |
intro
02:52
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STRESSING OUT YOURSELF, DO YOU REALLY WANT
TO TALK SEMANTICS RIGHT NOW
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’VE MADE NO EFFORT TO DENY THAT
IM JUST WAITING FOR A MOMENT WHERE MY
SENSE OF SUPERIOR CONTROL CAN TAKE OVER
AND I’LL HAVE EVERYONE UNDER MY FINGER
TRUST ME, I’M DIAGNOSED TO BE THIS WAY
CONSTANTLY PREPARED TO MANIPULATE
BUT INSIDE YOUR THIGHS, MAYBE I’LL FINALLY FIND
A MOMENT OF CLARITY BEFORE LOSING SHIT COMPLETELY
ENTIRELY FUCKED, CAN'T GET HOLD OF MYSELF
IM SHOOTING UP AMP JUST TO COOL OFF
DRENCHED IN SWEAT FROM ANOTHER’S BODY
WONDER HOW LONG UNTIL SECTIONING FINDS ME
BLIND IN MY RIGHT EYE FROM THE HUFF I MIXED LAST NIGHT
I’M A SLEAZE, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’M DISEASED AND IT’S NO WONDER
I WOULDN’T FUCK ME EITHER
BUT I CAN’T QUIT, WONT CURB MY OWN ENTHUSIASM
MUSCLES ALWAYS SPASM
BUT MY MIND IS ALWAYS DRIFTING BACK TO THE FEELING
OF MY BREATH AGAINST YOUR SKIN, WANT TO FEEL YOU FROM WITHIN
AND YOU WONT CALM DOWN, BUT I WON’T SACRIFICE MYSELF
‘CAUSE I'M A WASTE, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’M DISGRACED AND THERE’S NO
HOLY GHOST THAT COULD EVER CLEAN UP MY FUCKING FILTH
SO, REALLY, I DONT BLAME YOU
I’D WANT TO GET AWAY, TOO
BUT I’M AFRAID THAT I CAN’T HAVE THAT, YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE I HAVE LEFT
AND I HAVE SOME THINGS THAT I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST
THE PHYSICAL CATHARSIS THAT I DESPERATELY SEEK
I’LL CARRY ON FROM MY BEDSHEETS INTO CEMETERIES
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
THERE’S NO TAKING THAT BACK
ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
IN MY DEEP FREEZE I’LL KEEP THEM, EVERY PIECE IN MEMORIAM
BECAUSE I'M A GOOD GUY
BUT TONIGHT’S NOT THAT NIGHT
SO I NEED YOU NOT TO FIGHT
‘CAUSE I'M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
COMPULSIVELY CONSUMED BY MY OWN MANIA
WITH NO WILL INSIDE TO CONTROL MY IMPULSES
I DIDNT MEAN TO START SHIT
BUT I'M COMPLETELY FUCKED, I’M FULL OF MYSELF
MY ENVY, PRIDE AND LUST
BOILED IN TOGETHER WITH MY SCARLET LETTER
I JUST WANT TO FUCK UNTIL I FEEL BETTER
MY HEAD WON’T SHUT UP, AND I NEED TO GO FURTHER
CAUSE I’M A CUNT, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
SO I MAY AS WELL LIVE UP TO IT
CRIMINALIZE THE SOCIALIZED AND DO AWAY WITH MY WHOLE LIFE
BUT FOR A SECOND THOUGHT, YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE
I HAVE LEFT FOR A CHANCE AT REAL COMPASSION
BUT ALL THEIR PIECES IN MEMORIAM, COVERED IN FREEZER BURN
ARE STILL A TESTAMENT TO HOW I WONT EVER LEARN
HOW TO CARE FOR ANYTHING BEYOND MY OWN DRIVE
TO OBJECTIFY EVERYONE I HAVE IN MY LIFE
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
SO YOU MIGHT WANT TO TAKE IT BACK
CAUSE ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
ONCE I’VE GONE SO FAR I WONT EVER GO BACK
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2. |
typical
03:44
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STRESSING OUT YOURSELF, DO YOU REALLY WANT
TO TALK SEMANTICS RIGHT NOW
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’VE MADE NO EFFORT TO DENY THAT
IM JUST WAITING FOR A MOMENT WHERE MY
SENSE OF SUPERIOR CONTROL CAN TAKE OVER
AND I’LL HAVE EVERYONE UNDER MY FINGER
TRUST ME, I’M DIAGNOSED TO BE THIS WAY
CONSTANTLY PREPARED TO MANIPULATE
BUT INSIDE YOUR THIGHS, MAYBE I’LL FINALLY FIND
A MOMENT OF CLARITY BEFORE LOSING SHIT COMPLETELY
ENTIRELY FUCKED, CAN'T GET A HOLD OF MYSELF
IM SHOOTING UP AMP TO JUST TO COOL OFF
DRENCHED IN SWEAT FROM ANOTHER’S BODY
WONDER HOW LONG UNTIL SECTIONING FINDS ME
BLIND IN MY RIGHT EYE FROM THE HUFF I MIXED LAST NIGHT
I’M A SLEAZE, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’M DISEASED AND IT’S NO WONDER
I WOULDN’T FUCK ME EITHER
BUT I CAN’T QUIT, WONT CURB MY OWN ENTHUSIASM
MUSCLES ALWAYS SPASM
BUT MY MIND IS ALWAYS DRIFTING BACK TO THE FEELING
OF MY BREATH AGAINST YOUR SKIN, WANT TO FEEL YOU FROM WITHIN
AND YOU WONT CALM DOWN, BUT I WON’T SACRIFICE MYSELF
‘CAUSE I'M A WASTE, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
I’M DISGRACED AND THERE’S NO
HOLY GHOST THAT COULD EVER CLEAN UP MY FUCKING FILTH
SO, REALLY, I DONT BLAME YOU
I’D WANT TO GET AWAY, TOO
BUT I’M AFRAID THAT I CAN’T HAVE THAT, YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE I HAVE LEFT
AND I HAVE SOME THINGS THAT I NEED TO GET OFF MY CHEST
THE PHYSICAL CATHARSIS THAT I DESPERATELY SEEK
I’LL CARRY ON FROM MY BEDSHEETS INTO CEMETERIES
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
THERE’S NO TAKING THAT BACK
ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
IN MY DEEP FREEZE I’LL KEEP THEM, EVERY PIECE IN MEMORIAM
BECAUSE I'M A GOOD GUY
BUT TONIGHT’S NOT THAT NIGHT
SO I NEED YOU NOT TO FIGHT
‘CAUSE I'M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
COMPULSIVELY CONSUMED BY MY OWN MANIA
WITH NO WILL INSIDE TO CONTROL MY IMPULSES
I DIDNT MEAN TO START SHIT
BUT I'M COMPLETELY FUCKED, I’M FULL OF MYSELF
MY ENVY, PRIDE AND LUST
BOILED IN TOGETHER WITH MY SCARLET LETTER
I JUST WANT TO FUCK UNTIL I FEEL BETTER
MY HEAD WON’T SHUT UP, AND I NEED TO GO FURTHER
CAUSE I’M A CUNT, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
SO I MAY AS WELL LIVE UP TO IT
CRIMINALIZE THE SOCIALIZED AND DO AWAY WITH MY WHOLE LIFE
BUT FOR A SECOND THOUGHT, YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE
I HAVE LEFT FOR A CHANCE AT REAL COMPASSION
BUT ALL THEIR PIECES IN MEMORIAM, COVERED IN FREEZER BURN
ARE STILL A TESTAMENT TO HOW I WONT EVER LEARN
HOW TO CARE FOR ANYTHING BEYOND MY OWN DRIVE
TO OBJECTIFY EVERYONE I HAVE IN MY LIFE
I’M A DICK, BUT WE ALL KNEW THAT
SO YOU MIGHT WANT TO TAKE IT BACK
CAUSE ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
ONCE YOU’VE GONE SO FAR, YOU CAN’T EVER TAKE THAT BACK
ONCE I’VE GONE SO FAR I WONT EVER GO BACK
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3. |
hypersexual
04:34
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I’M ON THE HUNT LATELY
HIGH CLASS FLOOZY TRASH
LAYING NAKED IN THE BACK OF YOUR CADILLAC
LATE NIGHT VOYUERISM JUST SO I CAN RELAX
LET MY KNUCKLES CRACK BEFORE I GO MAD
YOU’RE HIGH, YOU SMILE AT ME AND I’M NOT SURE WHY
WISH MY WILL WAS THAT GOOD
AND I COULD SEE WHATEVER YOU SEE, BUT
ALL I WANT IS YOU INSIDE ME
BLINDFOLDED AND COLD
BEGGING FOR MORE, BEGGING TO GO
BUT I’M JUST TRYING TO FIGURE MYSELF OUT
HOPING YOU COULD HELP ME OUT
THEY SAY IT’S GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH TO EXPOSE YOURSELF
BUT I’M COLD
OPENED MYSELF UP AND THERE WASN’T MUCH LEFT TO LET GO
I GOT A BLACK HOLE WHERE A CONSCIOUSNESS SHOULD GO
I'M ON THE HUNT LATELY, PUBLIC INDECENCY
FIND A COP AND GET SHOT OFF A MISDEMEANOUR CHARGE
BUT I’M A MENACE AT LARGE, ROLLING WEED DOWN THE HIGHWAY
I’M WELL ON MY WAY TO
FEELING SOMETHING MORE THAN WHAT I LEFT INSIDE ME
FEELING SOMETHING EVEN WITHOUT THE VIBRATE
FEELING SOMETHING, I DONT CARE WHAT IT MEANS
I JUST WANT TO FEEL COMPLETE WITH YOU ON YOUR KNEES
WHITE GIRL PRIVILEGE WHEN YOU WANT TO FUCK ME
BUT SAVAGE SICKNESS WHEN YOU NEED TO WANT ME
THEY SAY IT’S GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH
WHEN YOU CAN FAKE IT THAT WELL,
STILL IT’S WORTH EVERY DIME JUST TO TRY AND CALM MY DRIVE
A BUCK EIGHTY ON MY WAY
MOUTH LIKE AN ASHTRAY
HAVE A COUPLE GUYS I’VE HAD MY EYES ON
THERE’S ROOM STILL IN MY CLOSET IF I MAKE SOME
DONT KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN PUSH MY LUCK
WAITING EVERY NIGHT FOR THAT TYPE 2 FUCK
THEY SAY YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE, SO PROTECT IT
BUT MY BODY IS A GRAVEYARD OF WHO’S BEEN INSIDE IT
AND MEDICINE’S COME A LONG WAY IF I NEED IT
AND RIGHT NOW ALL I NEED IS THIS FIXATION
SIX SIX SIX TATTOOED INSIDE YOUR LIP
YOU SAY YOU ONLY FUCK THE BEST,
GUESS I’LL TAKE THAT AS A COMPLIMENT
HANDS GRIPPED AROUND YOUR NECK HIDING MARKS I BIT
FINGERS STILL WET LIKE I NEVER LEFT
THEY SAY IT’S GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH TO EXPOSE YOURSELF
LAYING NAKED IN THE BACKWOODS, I'M TIRED, TIE YOURSELF UP
SOMEDAY YOU’LL FIND A GUY YOU’LL LET COME INSIDE
I TRIED TO PLAY SENSITIVE, BUT I'M DESENSITIZED
HYPERSEXUAL VIOLENT MIND
I SWEAR I’D SHARE EVERYTHING WITH YOU, BUT YOU WOULDN’T WANT TO
IT’S BETTER YOU DON’T KNOW ALL THE THINGS I WANT TO DO, TO YOU
TO ME, TOO
BETTER TO ESCAPE IT IF YOU CAN, SO, TRY AND GET AWAY
I NEED THE EXERCISE, IT’S BEEN A FEW DAYS
AND I CANT CLEAR MY HEAD OF THE THOUGHT TONIGHT
OF YOUR HIPS, YOUR SPIT, MY KNIFE
TAKE YOU BACK TO MY SPOT
ONCE I CLEAR THE OTHERS OUT
DONT KNOW IF I GIVE A SHIT ENOUGH TO SORT THIS ALL OUT
YOU’RE GOOD ENOUGH FOR NOW, SO QUIET DOWN
I HAVE A CHANGE OF CLOTHES YOU CAN HAVE WHEN WE’RE DONE
IT DOESN’T NEED TO GET SLOPPY, I’M JUST HAVING FUN
THEY SAY IT’S GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH TO EXPOSE YOURSELF
BUT I’M COLD AND UNCONTROLLABLE, AND I'M AFRAID YOU’RE NOT GOING HOME
THERE WASN’T EVER ANYTHING ELSE
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4. |
manifesto
04:15
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DEPENDING ON WHERE YOU GET CUT
IT ONLY TAKES JUST A FEW MINUTES TO BLEED OUT
BUT EXSANGUINATION IS A LENGTHY GAME
TO SIT THROUGH YOURSELF
THE VERTIGO AND THE SPASMS
THE MESS AND COLLAPSING
IT’S HARDLY WORTH IT IF THEY FIND YOU
FACE DOWN IN A POOL OF YOUR OWN REGRET
SO GO OUT AT NIGHT, GET INTO A FIGHT
PISS SOMEONE OFF ENOUGH
AND LEAVE YOUR DOOR UNLOCKED
AND REST EASY WAITING FOR THE PILLOW HELD AGAINST YOUR FACE
IT ONLY TAKES JUST A FEW MINUTES TO SUFFOCATE
IF YOU DON’T FIGHT AGAINST IT ANY HARDER
THAN YOU NEED TO SO NO ONE SPECULATES
PROVIDED NO ONES GUILTY CONSCIENCE GETS IN THE WAY
BUT BRAIN DAMAGE IS A HAZARD THAT’S HARD TO AVOID
IF THEY WALK AWAY AND YOU RESUSCITATE
SO FUCK IT, GO OUT AND GET LAID
TAKE TWENTY SOME ODD SHOTS AND DON’T HESITATE
TO GET FILTHY WITH SOMEONE CLEARLY FUCKED UP THEMSELVES
STILL SHAKING AFTER THE LAST TRACK MARK ON THEIR ARM
AND DO LOTS OF DRUGS AND GET HIGH ENOUGH
THAT YOU MANAGE TO BLACK OUT AND WAKE UP
FAR AWAY FROM WHERE YOU CAME FROM
BUT THINGS LIKE SYPHILIS TAKE A REAL LONG TIME
DECADES BEFORE YOU LOSE WHATEVER’S LEFT OF YOUR MIND
THERE’S ADVANTAGES TO INERT GASSES
AND SHORT DROP HANGING IS AN OPTION
BUT EVERYTHING IS EFFORT AND I'M LAZY
EVERYTHING’S WORK AND I DON’T WANT TO BE
TRYING ANY HARDER, IT NEEDS TO COME NATURALLY
LIKE THE WAY MY HANDS MOVE FLUIDLY, MECHANICALLY
WITH A LIGHTER GRIPPED IN THEM TIGHTLY
AND A BOTTLE OF WHATEVER I’VE MIXED UP LATELY
SO I DONT MEAN TO GET SO SHITTY SO QUICKLY
BUT I’VE BEEN EYEING YOU UP AND I’M CLEARLY
FUCKED IN THE HEAD I DONT MEAN TO BE BRASH
BUT YOU’VE GOT A GOOD ASS AND MAYBE THAT’S ALL THAT I NEED
GET IT ON THROUGH THE NIGHT PHYSICALLY,
NOT JUST WET DREAMS, OF EVERYTHING I’LL NEVER BE
BUT TWENTY SECONDS OF EUPHORIA IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME
SO GIVE ME BRAIN AND TELL ME EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO SEE
LIKE THE TRUNK OF MY CAR AND A BACK ALLEY
IT ONLY TAKES A FEW MINUTES BEFORE THIS GETS MESSY
DON’T TRUST ME, I’M A CALAMITY
BUT TOUCH ME, I NEED SOME RELEASE
YOU’RE RESPONSIBLE FOR ME, SO WANT ME
TAKE ONE FOR THE TEAM AND GET IT OVER WITH QUICKLY
MAYBE THEN I WON’T NEED JUST A FEW MINUTES
AND A BUCKET AND SOME SPEED
NOT JUST HIGH ON WEED, NOT JUST ALL ME, ALL ME
OH GIRL, I CAN SHOW YOU MY WORLD, GIRL
MY BASEMENT’S NOT TOO COLD, GIRL
RELAX AND IT WON’T HURT, NO
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5. |
outro
03:11
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retrogress British Columbia
/he|him\
ts'msyen
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